Rants

INO wasn't working last night.
And I was changing my signature, and I was like URGH!
And now Yahoo! Messenger isn't working.
Gaaaagagaga.

well that sucks..

but look on the bright side! GDA's working again lol

Lmfao, yeah, it is.
I was like 'yay!'
And then like, 'aw!' when I saw no news. Lmfao.

lol

rant for today:

he always yells at me for every little thing i do wrong.
he always compares me to my brother.
he makes me feel like i'm stupid.
he yells at me for not cleaning but i didn't know that they were cleaning.
he didn't tell me.
*sigh*
it's frustrating
even though he treats me this way sometimes
i still love him of course.
i mean, who could hate their father?
not me.

Chelseaaaa. <3333

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Out of all my brothers friends, I hate him the most.
I was listening to MSI, and he flat out called it shit. Called it "emo" and gay, and called Jimmy a fag.
Same thing when I listened to Dresden Dolls, Leathermouth, Taking Back Sunday, and The Used.
I mean, I'm not saying he has to like them, but don't fucking say things like that about bands that I love. It pisses me off so much, especially having to use the words.
And he was like, "Is this all you do all day? Sit on the computer and talk to other losers?"
And I was just like, "Yes, Ryan, that's what I do all day. I have no friends, besides my "loser" friends online." And I said it real bitch like.
And he finally shut up.

Ughh. I just HATE, HATE, HATE, HATE, HATE it when people do shit like that. Call Jimmy a faggot. Fuck him.

*sigh*
I want the weekend back.
D=

GDA decided not to work again!!!!
D=

i tell them that i can't find the pain reliever for my teeth because they hurt really bad from the dentist.
my mom yells at me to shut up because she's doing something (playing a fucking game on the computer)
my dad calls me a fucking cry baby
i go to my room and shut the door.
something in the bathroom falls for some reason.
my dad says "good job chelsea!"
i start to cry.
i guess everything is my fault.
all i wanted was some pain reliever.
my dad gave me some soon after
so it's not that bad i guess.

^Chelsea, that IS bad. It's not that bad, it is bad.
The fact that your parents won't listen to you pisses me off.
If your tooth hurts, or you need something or something, go up to one of them and ask. If they something jackass like that, then, ugh, i don't know. That isn't parenting. Like, at all.
It's not your fault, it's theirs. I like your mom and your dad is okay, but it's their fault, don't blame yourself.

thanks sarah. ily. =)

you're welcome, ily too.
=D

^ yay! lol


Ugh......these stitches in my mouth are fucking annoying! grahh!

Yesterday, I was eating pizza and I burned the roof of my mouth. It hurts really bad.

^I hate it when that happens. Lmfao.

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I hate homework.
I'm already so, so, so, so sick of it.
Algebra needs to fucking die.
So does Spanish.

I've had some homework too, but it hasn't been too hard. The hardest thing is French, which is confusing.

I don't think I have any homework for tomorrow.
Just study for a Spanish test tommorow. that's it.
And Spanish is pretty easy.
It's just a test on time, numbers, and greetings.

She makes me so mad.
She talks soooo loud, just so I can hear her.
She talks to all my friends just to make me mad.
I hate it. I wish I could do something about it, but I can't.
She does have more "friends" than me, even though they all tell me they hate her. So, what, they are all two-faces? I guess. But if I was to say something to her, they would all back her up, just because they don't want her to hate them.
God. I hate all of them.

^ -_________- i hate those types of girls.

They act all nice around you and put on a smile, but when you walk away, they insult you.
Why can't people be real for once?
People today are just fake, rude, snobby, two-faced, and are just total bitches.
People suck. xD
But seriously, by acting like they're all friends to each other and then insulting them behind their back, it's just a waste of everyone's time.

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Ummmm....well, i don't have much to complain about right now other than my stitches in my mouth is a little bit annoying. It really doesn't hurt that much. It's just annoying cause i can feel them in there and I can't really open my jaw up that much or it'll start to tighten and it's just uncomfortable xD

My 2 year old cousin Camren had a seisure...again.
He had a seisure like....2 or 3 months ago and he had one again today.
The doctors think it might be just because he had a high fever.
He had a high fever the last time he had a seisure so yeah.
I think that younger kids are prone to that kind of thing when they have high fevers.
Anyway, if he ends up having more I pray to God that i'm not there when it happens.
I'd be scared to death.
I went with my grandma earlier like...around 8 PM to his house to see him and he's doing better. =)
It's still scary though of couse. =/

-I MISS MY GEOGRAPHY CLASS! =/

I loved that class/subject so much last year, and now this year as 10th graders were not taking any type of social studies whatsoever. It's sad. =( I MUCH rather have a social studies class than stupid Chemistry.

-Next week I have stupid ISTEP testing at school (Indiana state test for students)

-My dad isn't working. Well...he is, just not today because his work is slow, and he's worried that he's going to get laid off. He got off of work yesterday at like 11:00 AM -_____- because there was nothing else to do at work. So stupid

^I'm so sorry for Carmen, I love that kid. =/

yeah...
i love him too =)

my relationship with my mom is suffering.
i just don't get it.
i don't get her.
she doesn't get me.
i can't even talk to her without her yelling in my face.
i can't say one word.
she's so fucking selfish.
she makes me wanna fucking run away.
i just want to leave this house and live somewhere else.
i keep asking my grandma if i could live with her.
but i know my parents wouldn't allow it.
i just fucking hate it here sometimes.
i just wanna climb a fucking mountian and scream at the top of my lungs.
sometimes i just don't care
i just don't wanna deal with it
i just feel this sense of anger with my mom all the time.
i just wanna slap her.
she puts on a fucking act when other family members or my friends are over.
she makes herself seem and look so fucking perfect.
but when there's no one around, she's the complete opposite.
i just feel so far away from her sometimes.
i mean, we have our laughs and we get along sometimes
but most of the time there is just tension between us.
she complains all the fucking time.
what does she want me to do?
what does she want?
i don't know what's wrong with her.
she's just so complicated.
is she angry at her family for some reason?
with the world?
does she feel misunderstood?
cause i honestly don't get her.
i wish i did.
i wish i had a great relationship with my mom
i wish she was like all the other moms out there.
i wish i didn't feel so angry with her all of the time.
i wish she would stop complaining.
i wish she'd stop making having kids such a chore
i wish she could understand me.
i wish i could understand her.
i wish i didn't think of her this way.
i wish i didn't feel so angry.
i wish i didn't feel so bitter.
but i can't help the way i feel.
when i ask her one thing.
when i try to tell her something.
she just rolls her eyes like i'm always the problem.
i just can't stand it.
she's just so uptight all the time.
like everyone's out to get her.
she makes people feel sorry for her.
she's rude
she has a big mouth and doesn't know when to shut up
and ends up hurting people's feelings.
and the thing i hate the most about all of this
is how much i can't stand her sometimes.
i just don't know.
i don't think we'll ever truly understand each other.
and i wish i didn't feel this way
i wish i didn't have to write all this
by the way
sorry for how long this post is
i just needed to get my feelings out i guess.
hopefully things will get better
someday
and i wish i could just tell her how i feel
but she'll never understand.

^I'm so sorry, Chelsea, I know how she is.
And I feel helpless, because there isn't really anything I can do or say. =/
You just have to deal with her. She's your mom. She's young, and selfish sometimes. It sucks, but you can't really change her. You have to try and change to fit her. =/