Rants

Thank you. It means a lot to me. I would do the same for you, and I'm pretty sure you know that.

I just hate how people think i'm stupid or mean. Just because I don't look like the most welcoming person in the world doesn't mean i'm a bitch or I want to kill you or something. People take one look, and then they label whatever on you before saying one word to you. I've been called a freak, emo, goth, vampire, slut, a 'thing', pothead, etc. & I just get sick of it.

But they don't mean anything. I was just upset.

My rant for today: I have a headache and an annoying pain in my side THAT WON'T GO AWAY. lol. And I had the hiccups for 3 periods today. Very annoying.

whoa.....lol

do you still have the hiccups?

IMNOTOKAY.NET IS NOT RESPONDING FOR THE 548467641657 TIME!

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Mindless Self Indulgence are touring next year for their new album 'If'. They are coming to the US, and are playing in Pennsylvania, BUT NOT IN A TOWN NEAR ME.

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

That really sucks!!

Don't you think that maybe MSI would have one somewhere in Ohio that's kinda close to you? they might.

I hate when sites act up! Myspace was acting up yesterday and wasn't letting me change my profile. It finally did let me though after the 4057205642860 time. LOL

lolol, i know. INO always lags because of all the people and the chat thing.

i found out that msi are playing in a place called Millville which is around Pittsburgh. I told my mom and she didn't say yes or no or anything. hopefully, if i tell her i'll pay for everything, she'll let me go. i want to go very badly. lol.

sweeeeetness!

rant: stupid INO isn't working again!! GAHHHHH I HATE it! LET ME ON THE SITE!!!!! GRRRRR!

Gerard Way wrote:

I hate my life.
I hate the want to die.
I hate seeing the person I considered my friend for 2 years abandon me and seem like she forgot all about me.
I hate waking up in the morning and going to 7 hours of hell.
I hate being addicted to cutting.
I hate crying in the middle of classes and not being able to explain why.
I hate people's ignorance.
I hate being teased and taunted for who I am.
I hate having people think the wrong things about me.
I hate not being shown affection.
I hate not having any friends that live around me.
I hate being anti-social.
I hate feeling unattractive.
I hate having a low self esteem.
I hate not being able to be straight like everyone else.
I hate not being good at anything.
I hate being a procrastinator.
I hate being stupid.
I hate spending all my days in front of a computer screen.
I hate not being able to finish anything.
I hate people, in general.
I hate feeling like an outcast everywhere I go.
I hate never being able to go out and have fun with friends.
I hate going to school and not having anyone to talk to.
I hate thinking about different ways to kill myself.
I hate never having any energy.
I hate always living inside my head.
I hate not being accepted for who I am.
I hate having social anxiety disorder.
I hate having panic attacks.
I hate being clinically depressed.
I hate being uncomfortable.
I hate it all.

Sorry for the long rant. I wrote this down in class today. I wasn't having a very good day.

Sarah, let me tell you something. I think it was about a month or so ago, I was feeling the same way. This year at school, I only have a few friends. In 6th grade and 7th grade, I had loads, but everyone seems to be going their own way and they've all became Abercrombie and Hollister wearing sluts. I really miss a lot of people, and there are only three people who I really consider my friends. It gets really hard because when I meet someone and we become friends, I get all clingy and I feel like I'll loose them.

On top of that, school's kicking me in the ass. This year has been my worst. I don't know if it's just me or my school, but the homework never stops. Sometimes it gets so stressful, I start to cry and I feel like I want to hurt something. Once, I hurt myself, and I felt guilty after, but I know I'd never do it again, it was just a way for me to get all the bad feelings out. When I get upset like that, I take my anger out on other people, espically my mom. Our relationship is slowly dying, we fight all the time and sometimes I just feel like slapping her. Trust me, I know exactly how you feel.

lol Sorry, this is insanely long.

^Aw, Fayers. I'm glad someone feels the same way, but I feel sad that it's you.
Thanks for careing, though. Ily.

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My back hurts, and a dog is trying to climb up my leg.
This mouse is stupid too. I have to use a ball thing to move the mouse, but click a button thingy to click on something. It's stupid.

It's okay, and you're welcome. Any time babe.

My stupid art teacher set the due date for a new project to this friday....we have to build a wire sculpture in three days....not gonna happen.

i hate him,, he was such a dick head, but i hadn't known this till this time

ummmmm....well, i gues my rant for the day is that...idk. LOL I guess i'm kinda still tired but that's about it xD

i hate people, i want them to die ... they mind me,.... i am just a punk* for them

*rubbish

I didn't know where else to post this; it is kind of a rant though, because it bothers me.

I still can't add you, Chelsea, on myspace.
Add me please??

http://www.myspace.com/amongst_the_lies

well...that's strange. lolol okay, i'll try to add you ^__^

it worked.
YAY!!!!

YAYYYYYY!!! =D

Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck.

This is bullshit.

There's a few things I'd like to say.

First, fucking school starts on Thursday. That's in three days. I'm so not ready! Last year was miserable from start to finish because I had so much homework all the time. When last year ended, I was so happy because I thought summer would be so much fun. But, it really wasn't. I traveled out of state a few times, but other than that, I just hung out at home. It was so boring. I watched tv, got on the computer, and read, but after awhile, that can get really boring. Plus, the school I'm going to this year is bigger and I'm really worried about getting lost. I really don't want to go back.

Second, I've been following the US women's gymnastics team in the Olympics. Nastia Liukin, one on the US gymnasts, got gold in some event. And, another girl, Shawn Johnson, got silver. A Chinease girl got bronze. I read an article about it, but I ddin't really understand it, something happened where Nastia and the Chinease girl tied for something. So, I think what happened was they took the gold medal away from Nastia and gave it to the Chinease girl. Now, Nastia has silver, a Chinease girl has gold, and another Chinease girl has bronze. They kicked Shawn out completely. It pissed me off so much. I'm not being racist or anything, but why give someone a medal and then take it away? I think that's really stupid.

Ugh.....i had a really horrible boring uneventful shitty day today -_____-

I really don't know why, but a sense of sadness randomly overcame me and now I don't feel like doing anything.....

I forgot my ID necklace at my house, so.....that sucked because I can't eat lunch without it so i ended up not eating anything. Choir was a complete disappointment today. I just didn't feel like my choir did their best singing wise and my mouth was all dry and just didn't feel like singing.

There's never any food in the fucking house, so I'm still stuck hungry. My dad is making me a sausage patty sandwich right now since i didn't eat today though so that's good.

But in general.....pretty miserable day.
I think everyone has those days where for some odd reason you feel exhausted and just....idk sad about nothing in particular.

^Aw, i'm sorry, Chelsea.
I'd instantly mail you oreos or something if I could. =)

aww, thanks sarah lol

lmfao, you're welcome.

GDA isn't working!!!! D=