Sarah's songs/poems

Fall

Fall
When I'm falling down
Fall, fall
It's not that bad when you lose it all
And when I fall
It won't hurt

Disaray is in every light
Don't tell me good-night this time
Tell me good-bye
It's the end of everything I knew
Everything was just me and you
And now its been split in two

Fall
When I'm falling down
Fall, fall
It's not that bad when you lose it all
And when I fall
It won't hurt

Passing by a rainbow
Seeing shadows
Of what I was
Its not that bad
Don't cry for me
You only cry when your sad, anyway

Fall
When I'm falling down
Fall, fall
It's not that bad when you lose it all
And when I fall
It won't hurt
***
Other Girl

Looking through the glass
All I see is the girl whose gonna kick my ass
The new girl
Your other girl

Your other girl
The girl who stole my world
The new girl
The one who took my world away

I thought it would be nice
To remove such a chain to my world
I guess I was wrong
Cuz i'm just jealous of the new girl
I find it pretty pathetic
To want to be a girl I loathe
Its pretty damn sad
When I ended it but still have love

Your other girl
The girl who stole my world
The new girl
The one who took my world away

Overrated Murder

Fresh meat is all that he needs
Just something new to give
Something to make innocence bleed
Something to not live
Anymore

Murdering is so overrated
Torturing is now "in"
Torture the victim until theres nothing left
It will count as the highest sin

Blood trickling down is all he needs
Just something to entertain
Something to make lives bleed
Something to paint a red stain

Murdering is so overrated
Torturing is now "in"
Torture the victim until theres nothing left
It will count as the highest sin

Stronger douses is all he needs
All he needs to make you bleed
It rounds up the rage inside
To make you bleed on the outside
We can save a life one at a time
We can stop people like him
But if we say we'll do it one at a time
And when we don't, its our own sin

Murdering is so overrated
Torturing is now "in"
Torture the victim until theres nothing left
It will count as the highest sin
***
Angel Of Depression

You are my angel of depression
You are the blood on my sheets
You are the figment of expression
You are the heart that gives me beats
Beats that I don't want
My angel of depression

I'll be here till you come home
I don't want to stay but I don't want to go
I see a faint, dimmed glow
Theres nothing left to show

I thought I saw everything
I thought I knew anything
I was so wrong
I thought I could live
Give everything to give
I was so wrong

You are my angel of depression
You are the blood on my sheets
You are the figment of expression
You are the heart that gives me beats
Beats that I don't want
My angel of depression

I'll be standing here when you leave
I'll be holding on for nothing
I'll have the blood you seethed
Because its mine; your everything

Satisfaction sounds ancient
Strange love is so overrated
I'm your autopsy patient
Your one to be sedated

And if I fall
Don't come pick me up
Just let me lie
Let me die

I thought I could live
Give everything to give
I was so wrong

You are my angel of depression
You are the blood on my sheets
You are the figment of expression
You are the heart that gives me beats
Beats that I don't want
My angel of depression

Slit my throat and cut my wrists
A stain that never leaves
Its all my unforgivable bliss
Just left to seethe

My vainness is not on purpose
I apologize for everything
Especially for bleeding on your hands

I have become what you hate even more
You became beautiful
It makes me want to drown you in the shore
To make me even more miserable

I thought I saw everything
I thought I knew anything
I was so wrong

You are my angel of depression
You are the blood on my sheets
You are the figment of expression
You are the heart that gives me beats
Beats that I don't want
My angel of depression

You don't see me suffer outside
But you watch me bleed inside
And purposely out

I don't want you to forget
I don't want to be your biggest regret
I want you to remember the time
And not my tragic mind

Black my eyes and kiss my lips
Cut my throat and slice my wrists
No pain at all will be caused
I'll give you the loudest applause

And if I fall
Don't come pick me up
Just let me lie
Let me die

I want to be sedated
I want to be your bliss
I don't want to be debated
I don't want this gory wrist

All I ever wanted was the light in your eyes
The light I could never receive
I want your blue eyes that never cry
I want your passion that never leaves

I have become what you hate even more
You became beautiful
It makes me want to drown you in the shore
To make me even more miserable

You are my angel of depression
You are the blood on my sheets
You are the figment of expression
You are the heart that gives me beats
Beats that I don't want
My angel of depression

And if I fall
Don't come pick me up
Just let me lie
Let me die
Let me die
Let me die.
***
Mindless Feeling
something i can't reach
something you can teach
but its nothing i want to learn
anything but the pain
anything but this mindless game
cause its nothing i want to play

i guess when i bottled everything up
you were just there when i exploded
i'm not really sorry cause it makes me relieved
it makes me feel good
and i won't give up this feeling for anything

something i can't feel
something you can touch
but its nothing i want to know
anything but the fun
anything but staring at the sun
cause i don't want to hurt your eyes

i guess when i bottled everything up
you were just there when i exploded
i'm not really sorry cause it makes me relieved
it makes me feel good
and i won't give up this feeling for anything

starry nights and hopeless lights
blinding me from above
i don't want to look up, but i do
it changes me so much i can't explain
i guess just crying in front of you opened a new door
and i'm not sure
if i want to close it so soon

i feel mindless
like i'm floating on thin air
my mind is gone, my heart beats
its what i've always yearned to defeat
but now i like it
now i like it

i guess when i bottled everything up
you were just there when i exploded
i'm not really sorry cause it makes me relieved
it makes me feel good
and i won't give up this feeling for anything

i feel mindless
like i'm floating on thin air
my mind is gone, my heart beats
its what i've always yearned to defeat
but now i like it
now i like it
***
Frusteration To Isolation

difference is sameness
when you can't pick between the two
just like you and me
i just can't choose

would i rather be with you
and go through ache once again?
or be alone, all by myself
with no one to call a friend?
would i rather cry every night
because of some damn mistake?
or would i cry every night
because of something i didn't take?

desire or dimmed fire
or just a blank mind?
its all the same to me
elevation to disadvantage
which is which?
i just can't tell what would be better
to calm myself or write you a letter

would i rather be with you
and go through ache once again?
or be alone, all by myself
with no one to call a friend?
would i rather cry every night
because of some damn mistake?
or would i cry every night
because of something i didn't take?

frustration to isolation
i don't know what is better
to love myself or love you
i'm guessing its the same
because i can say i hate them both
and this life is one long game

difference is sameness
when you can't pick between the two
just like you and me
i just can't choose

would i rather be with you
and go through ache once again?
or be alone, all by myself
with no one to call a friend?
would i rather cry every night
because of some damn mistake?
or would i cry every night
because of something i didn't take?

i'm guessing its the same
because i can say i hate them both
and this life is one long game.
***
Secluded

"I" doesn't have an "us"
Which means your not included
Your not welcomed with me
You just get to be secluded

Why would I allow you to be here
When you wouldn't let me in?
Why would I be so kind to you
When you make me your highest sin?

I'm making it all so fair
I'm letting you in on some pain
Hopefully it affects you greatly
Hopefully it drives you insane

I like leaving you out and seeing you cry
It reminds me of when I was like you
Pathetic, washed-up baby
Whine is all you ever do

Maybe since you think i'm cruel
You'll finally leave me alone
You can fuck off and live your life
And I can go off in my zone

Its not that hard to close your mouth
But its so big, I don't know if its possible
I can come to you and do it for you
Then it would be no where near impossible

"I" doesn't have an "us"
Which means your not included
Your not welcomed with me
You just get to be secluded.
***
Closed

Trying to picture nothing
Meditate on everything
Open to whatever comes
Shut out no one
Trying to slip away
Murder what used to be
Closed to pain and lies
Open to nothing
Falling through the mind
Bouncing off the wall
Kill what was once alive
I don't want to be vain
I can't trust when no one offers
Can't be when no one is open
I don't want to be here right now
I don't want to be so closed.
***
Break Down

How do you know how I feel
My numb spirit in coldness
I forgot how to kneal
To pray and save myself

In this hollow mind
The walls break down
The nerves break my circuts
I twitch and fall down

Could you at least try to save me
Could you pretend that you care
Could you give me a handfull of sanity
Can you give me a life I can bare
Can you stop this nervous bleeding
Stop me from deceiving - break down

Black rose with sharp thorns
My core blackening out
Suicide and bedside with vomit on the floor

In this hollow mind
The walls fall down
The nevous system snaps in half
I'm having a break down

Could you at least try to save me
Could you pretend that you care
Could you give me a handfull of sanity
Can you give me a life I can bare
Can you stop this nervous bleeding
Stop me from deceiving - break down
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Bury Me In Black

You say speak up
So I pull my heart right out
My mouths numb and speechless
And pain is better than shouts

Bury me in black
Because every other color shines
Bury me in black
I want to dwell in my suicide

Plant the roses on my coffin
But don't stick around to see me put in the ground
It might make you a little sad

Bury me in black
Because every other color shines
Bury me in black
I want to dwell in my suicide
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Fragile

Feel the liquid in her wrist
It gives her silent yet wonderful bliss
She won't remember a damn thing
But she might get enough courage to sing

Theres the songs thats shes sung but the drugs thats shes done
Shes a poet at heart now watch her fall apart

Shes a fragile littrle girl
Lost in the big world
Too shy to be herself but to outspoken to stay in coldness
A fragile little girl lost in the big wide cold world

Smokes a joint again and again
Its her friend till the end
She'll go write a song or two
Explain why shes so damn blue

My Imagination

Unimaginable thoughts race thru my imagination
The killing of a family; destruction of a nation
Its all so ordinary; nothing extraordinary
Its all the same to me

Give me unimaginable bliss
Help my imagination sit
Give me peace and prosperity
Help me proportion me

Unimaginable thoughts race thru my imagination
Sucidal suggestions; down fall of a nation
I hate everything; can't stand anything
Its all to Hell with me

Give me unimaginable bliss
Help my imagination sit
Give me peace and prosperity
Help me proportion me

My imagination
Is the cause of hysteria
The source of a mania
Imagine that

Give me unimaginable bliss
Help my imagination sit
Give me peace and prosperity
Help me proportion me
***
Fried

I tried to talk to you the other day
But you were with a friend
Rejected and replaced I am
Your cold

You say i'm your friend
But you never talk to me
You say were best friends
But i'm ignored contantly
I'm fed up and you're toungue tied
The friendships fried

I tried to talk to you yesterday
But you were with some friends
humiliated and hotheaded I am
I'm done

You say i'm your friend
But you never talk to me
You say were best friends
But i'm ignored contantly
I'm fed up and you're toungue tied
The friendships fried

Give me a pen or pencil
Just a writing utensil
So I can write this all down
I'll bitch and moan
All alone
Your cold and I'm done.

You say i'm your friend
But you never talk to me
You say were best friends
But i'm ignored contantly
I'm fed up and you're toungue tied
The friendships fried
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My Sadest Rainy Day

I look out my window
Hum my favorite tune
Holding hands and laughing
Pretending life was good

Theres no room for love
We both must rot away
Both lives have black cores
But it doesn't matter anymore.

If I act okay
And say i'm alright
If I had the guys
I wouldn't be on this planet tonight
If you said you loved me
I wouldn't be here
If you showed me compassion
I'd feel my heart pumping

Theres no room for love
We both must rot away
Both lives have black cores
But it doesn't matter anymore.

Its too cold in this bed
Its too cold in this body
Its too cold in this head
Theres too much acid in this belly
Ease your mind, kill me now
Its not worth your pain, to see me insane.

Theres no room for love
We both must rot away
Both lives have black cores
But it doesn't matter anymore.

I can't feel the coldest on my face
I can't find Heaven in this place
If you hate me, take my life
Don't whine to your mind
Anymore
I can't cry
Its too weak
Chirping birds and sunny days
It ruins my sadest rainy day.
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Redundant Tears

If my heart breaks, will you put it back together?
If you say you love me, will that love last forever?
If I die right now, will death come upon you too?
If you say you love me, will I say I love you?

Should I expect this every day of every week of every year?
Drowning in my river of redundant tears.

If I scream, will I scream all damn day?
If I run, will I run away?
If I love one, will you be the one I love?
If I push you away, will you respond with a shove?

Should I expect this every day of every week of every year?
Drowning in my river of redundant tears.

You shake me to wake me
But I won't move
I'm frozen in dozens
Of aching grooves
But I won't move
I'm bored with all this
grow up and take back your bliss
mature a bit, regret your shit
Maybe then you'll see my face again

Should I expect this every day of every week of every year?
Drowning in my river of redundant tears.
***
Slip Away

Is everything okay?
You called too late last night.
Are you better off today?
Will you ever be alright?
I don't know what else to say.
I love you, is that okay?

I'll come on over, you can cry on my shoulder
I'll take your hand so you never slip away.
If you don't understand or don't remeber
You don't have to care cause i'm on my way there.

Is everything alright?
I tried calling you last night.
Your better off today.
I'm here to help in a way that's right.
I don't know what else to say.
Stay..so you never slip away.

I'll come on over, you can cry on my shoulder
I'll take your hand so you never slip away.
If you don't understand or don't remeber
You don't have to care cause i'm on my way there.

I'm not here to fight; i'm not here to argue.
I'm here cause i'm in love with you.
I love you.
***
Fear

Haunting me
I know clearly
The clarity of your voice is alarming
Its startiling, startiling me
The fear of you being here
Coming back to me, the claritys clear

The only thing I fear is fear itself
The only thing I want is myself
And you can't take that away from me.

Rapeing me
I know clearly
You're back in my dreams forever.
And ever, forevermore.
The fear of you being here
Coming to get me, my weakness is clear.

The only thing I fear is fear itself
The only thing I want is myself
And you can't take that away from me

Haunting me, I know clearly
The clarity of your touch is alarminf
It frightens me.
***
Boy and Girl

Heres a picture, it instills so much joy
What a happy girl, what a happy boy
But now the girl is older, same with boy
No time for laughter, no time for joy.

Boy and girl don't talk anymore
Boy and girl forgot all that fun
Boy and girl have changed since before
Boy and girl are no longer one.

Boy is a quarterback, girl is a waitress
Girl is broke, boy is a mess
Boy and girl have empty souls
They just don't realize it
They are always looking for love
They will never find it.

Boy and girl don't talk anymore
Boy and girl forgot all that fun
Boy and girl have changed since before
Boy and girl are no longer one.

They had such a good thing and they threw it away
Boy and girl showed eachother love then walked away
They has such a good thing
But now it's gone.
***
Messiah

I'll live to save you as you run in harms way
I'll sacrifice to protect you
Treasure all thats left of yesterday

I'll be your messiah
Your savior from above.

I'll hold your hand
And stop the bullet you shot at yourself.
I'll protect you from anything & everything
You don't have to worry anymore

I'll be your messiah
Your savior from above.

Theres an obligation, I'm in forevermore
I'll save you from you imagination
I'll save you from yourself.

I'll be your messiah
Your savior from above
Preventing your suicide
Saving you with love

I'll save you from you imagination
I'll save you from yourself.
***
Deteriation

I never though my days could be so hazy
I never thought my nights would get so lazy
And my mouth is numb
I can't explain anything anymore

These hopeless city lights
Lead me into a cold crisp night
The dawning of a new me
Has nothing she used to have or be

I never though my days could be so hazy
I never thought my nights would get so lazy
And my mouth is numb
I can't explain anything anymore

You try to save me, you try to help me
You must be desprate for attention
I pushed you away, then turned away
I don't want you to see my deteriation

I never though my days could be so hazy
I never thought my nights would get so lazy
And my mouth is numb
I can't explain anything anymore
***
Blissfulness

You drive out my sanity and I hate everything about you
You pick me up then break me down
It's all you could ever do.
I'm shamed to of once loved you

I can't erase or fade to black
My sanitys gone; you took me over
I can't pick up this excess slack
You wear me out.

You drive out my sanity and I hate everything about you
You bring me up then pull me down
Now i'm lost and barely bound
Dreamless without sound

I can't erase or fade to black
My sanitys gone; you took me over
I can't pick up this excess slack
You wear me out.

Blissfulness is what you though I wanted
It's what I thought as well
I haven't smiled since being haunted
I have no voice to tell

You drive out my sanity and I hate everything about you
You pick me up then break me down
But i'm in complete love with you
Its all I could ever do
I'm shamed to of once left you
***
Death Row

I can sit here and stare at the wall
Or miss all the friends I used to call
Either way, the thought remains
It's tattooed in my brain

I've been waiting forever to face the end
I wish we were still together, I wish our lives were better
But i'm a death row member.

I can sit here and stare at the ceiling
Or remeber how I gave you my special feelings
Either way, I'm stuck here
With one thought to fear.

I've been waiting forever to face the end
I wish we were still together, I wish our lives were better
But i'm a death row member.

I can sit here and stare at the floor
Or note how no one comes throw my door
Either way, i'll have something to occupy me
Instead of the thought that consumes me.

I've been waiting forever to face the end
I wish we were still together, I wish our lives were better
But i'm a death row member.
***
One

See a rainbow, wonder why it's there
See the rays of the sun reflect off your hair
Difference is the same to me now
I understand what you told me before.

I'm not dreaming, i've finished my screaming
I know this life will turn around
It's not over, it hasn't even begun
I know our lives will soon form one

See a shadow, wonder what it knows
See the trees sway cause the cool wind blows
Everything is so beautiful now
I understand life; I understand love.

I'm not dreaming, i've finished my screaming
I know this life will turn around
It's not over, it hasn't even begun
I know our lives will soon form one
***
Transparent
I'll give you the shadow when the sun burns your eyes
I'll give you the funeral when your love for her dies
I'll give you the love letter she told me to give to you
It speaks of love supposibly true

I care about you, I don't care about me
Thats the meaning of all of this
I love you and despise me
I'm living this life for you
To protect you from me

I'll give her this rose when you made mistakes
I'll lead her down the road when shes too high and aches
I'll lie you two together when your too wasted to move
Then i'll wish for a kiss like the one she gave to you

I care about you, I don't care about me
Thats the meaning of all of this
I love you and despise me
I'm living this life for you
To protect you from me

I'll give you the balnket when you start to shiver
I'll smile as you sleepcwhen its finally better
I live to be transparent when it's all i've ever done
I am transparent, i'm living to make you one.

I care about you, I don't care about me
Thats the meaning of all of this
I love you and despise me
I'm living this life for you
To protect you from me
***
Love Is A Temple
(Inspired by One by U2)

It took me forever to build these walls
My hands bled from all my hard labor
And it was smart & clever
It took a lifetime to soften these edges
To make this house a home
And now I stand alone
Standing on my fallen walls
My pride left in millineous pieces

Love is a temple but the walls can break
Love is a symbol but it's taken all it can take
Love is a temple
Give it mercy for Gods sake.

It took me forever to create these walls
I didn't rest till I was finally done
But I lost and nobody won
It took a lifetim to complete it all
To be totally and completly satisfied
But now I cry
You destroyed my lovehouse
And with it, a piece of me died.

Love is a temple but the walls can break
Love is a symbol but it's taken all it can take
Love is a temple
Give it mercy for Gods sake.

Love is bliss, thats why I made my temple
It was for you and me but we missed
Bliss is love, love is a temple
It was yours and mine
But now it's gone
And it's all your fault.

Love is a temple but the walls can break
Love is a symbol but it's taken all it can take
Love is a temple
Give it mercy for Gods sake.
***
All He Left Behind
(Based on American Idiot)

And all he left behind
In a Jimmy state of mind
A time to sacrifice
Everything he had
He didn't know where to go
He forgot all he knew by getting stoned
Then ached from head to toe
And was so sad
No one could ever help him
Away he got will all those sins
Then he lost all his wins
To being bad
Then an extraordinary girl
Changes his ordinary world
His tortured little world
Became so glad
Jimmy died that day
When Whatsername went away
It feels like yesterday
When all is what he had
Now he recalls her face
And their love making place
But it's time to close the case
And leave it all behind.

Crashing And Burning

Crashing and burning
This life keeps on turning
I can't control the way the wind blows tonight

I walk in the rain
Just cause I feel like it
Then you break my brain
And I walk in thee rain
Just to hide these tears away

Crashing and burning
This life keeps on turning
I can't control the way the wind blows tonight

I walk all alone
Just cause I feel like shit
Then you yell on the phone
And as I'm walking alone
I collaspe on the floor

Crashing and burning
This life keeps on turning
I can't control the way the wind blows tonight

We're crashing and burning
They're crashing and burning
I'm crashing and burning
Burning and crashing away

Scraps of this life near a masoleum
We can't work together or be a team

Crashing and burning
This life keeps on turning
I can't control the way the wind blows tonight

Crashing and burning
I'll always keep yearning
Don't put me on the backburner tonight.

Good Morning

Good morning day
I don't want to live today
I wished to die in my bed
Good evening night
I don't want to start a fight
Just have voices corrupt my head

Good morning day
Good evening night
I don't want to stick around tonight
I just want to be alone
God must hate me to not take me to his home.

Good morning day
It's not fair to not get my way
I wished for painful suicide
Good evening night
Lonliness is ready to suffice
And i've lost track of time

Good morning day
Good evening night
I don't want to stick around tonight
I just want to be alone
God must hate me to not take me to his home.

I'm yearning for a morning I don't wake to
I'm praying for nothing new to do
I don't want anything anymore

Good morning day
Good evening night
I don't want to stick around tonight
I just want to be alone
God must hate me to not take me to his home.

Today

I thought we moved on from what we learned
Built a boat when our bridge burned
I hope this planet can make it through
If if we are the last ones to do
This country is ones mans home
To another, he stands alone

Today
Skin color is still and issue
Today
Gay slangs are thrown around
Today
Celebrities waste money like a tissue
Today
The world is breaking down.

I remeber the 11th of September
August ended and so did summer
I pray Earth will make it through
And one day, we'll pay our dues
This land is ones mans bones
To another, it ain't no home

Today
Most American's own a gun
Today
Global warming is very relevant
Today
Smoking crack is having fun
Today
The world should share it's birth certificate

We are destroying our world
We are destroying our land
When the world has turned to dust:
Where will we stand?
It's our own suicide
We're killing ourselves
We're running out of time
We have to save ourselves!

I remember the 11th of September
August just ended and so did summer
It was an absolutly gorgeous day
Aside from the fireworks of death that blew us away.

Today
Skin color is still and issue
Today
Gay slangs are thrown around
Today
Celebrities waste money like a tissue
Today
The world is breaking down.
***
Eternity

I gave you a flower
But you turned it sour
Just by dipping it in your blood
I cried as you devoured
My pain in every hour
My discomfort is your favorite drug

Physically, emotionally, mentally.
I positively think you want to break me down
Physically, emotionally, mentally.
My negativity shines as i'm falling down
For an eternity

I gave you my blood
And you gave me a shove
And forced me to my knees
I tried to give you a hug
But you ripped of your glove
And threw it right at me

Physically, emotionally, mentally.
I positively think you want to break me down
Physically, emotionally, mentally.
My negativity shines as i'm falling down
For an eternity
***
Pissed Off

All my tears are adding up
A toxic river in a cup
And you drink it all away
My pain in liquid form
Is tearing and is torn
And it will bleed everyday

I can now mold my life any way I want it
And you can bet
You won't be a part of it
I'm sick and tired of all your shit
And you know you did
Everything possible just to get me pissed
Just to get me pissed off

I'm screaming and yelling
And i'll keep on crying
Till I get what I deserve
My spirit in open heartache
You drink it like a milkshake
And my tears are just your dessert.

I can now mold my life any way I want it
And you can bet
You won't be a part of it
I'm sick and tired of all your shit
And you know you did
Everything possible just to get me pissed
Just to get me pissed off
***

I LOVE THEM ALL!

thankies!

I haven't been able to write at all though, it sucks.

More:

Kerosene & Cyanide

Kerosene and cyanide are enemies of fire
Just like you and me so I keep getting higher

I keep getting higher
I keep getting higher
I keep getting higher
Till my mouth is on fire.
I keep getting higher
I keep getting higher
I keep getting higher
Till my mouth is on fire.

Kerosene and cyanide are enemies of you
After I set you on fire, all I ever do
Is get higher

I keep getting higher
I keep getting higher
I keep getting higher
Till my mouth is on fire.
I keep getting higher
I keep getting higher
I keep getting higher
Till my mouth is on fire.

Kerosene and cyanide
cyanide and kerosene
I keep getting high
While you keep getting mean
Kerosene and cyanide
Cyanide and kerosene
I keep getting high
While you tell me to get clean

I keep getting higher
I keep getting higher
I keep getting higher
Till my mouth is on fire
I keep getting higher
I keep getting higher
I keep getting higher
Till my mouth is on fire.
***
Vampire

My blood is left on the floor
And all you want is more, more, more.
More blood to drink
Helps you think
Think all through the night
And keeps the bed bugs away so they don't bite.

A blood stain on the carpet
Is hard for you to forget
Your addicted to blood
It is your drug
You salvage all you can
Bite an neck, wrist or hand
Till you hit the spot
And the blood will drop.

My blood is left on the floor
And all you want is more, more, more.
More blood to drink
Helps you think
Think all through the night
And keeps the bed bugs away so they don't bite.

A blood stain on some clothes
The person who washed it out is a foe
Your addicted to blood
It is your drug
You drink all you can drink
You're resting on the insane brink
You drink all the blood that drops
And I know you will never stop.

My blood is left on the floor
And all you want is more, more, more.
More blood to drink
Helps you think
Think all through the night
And keeps the bed bugs away so they don't bite.
***
I Hate Flowers

Roses are red
Violets are blue
I hate flowers
And, of course, you too.
I'll never be happy
I'll never have pride
I hate flowers
And the rest of my life.
My heart is popping
My muscles are tight
I hate flowers
And this cold night.
Stuck with you forever
Stuck with myself
I hate flowers
And everything else.
Loseing my mind
Biteing my fingernails
I hate flowers
And all those fairytales.
I'm confused and angry
Saddened by sorrow
I hate flowers
And every tomorrow.
Demolition cars
Is my metaphor of love
I hate flowers
And the blue sky above.
Changes ways while young
And keep a bible by your bed
I hate flowers
And the thoughts in my head.
Grief by streetlights
Magazines with plastic faces
I hate flowers
And all lifes mazes.
Bricks can make a house
A house but not a home
I hate flowers
And always being alone.
Sex & drugs is life
And life must be lived
I hate flowers
And all the shit that I did.
Glitz and glamour television
Beaming a whole new light
I hate flowers
And how the beam is bright.
Roses were once red
Violets were once blue
I hate flowers
But I can't remember you.
***
Wonder And Remember

Do you ever stop and wonder
Think what you can remember
Wonder what you can wonder
Remember what you can remember
I wonder
I remember
All of my worst days ever
I wonder
I remember
If they'll get any better
I wonder what I wanted
To not be so haunted
To walk so saunted
But I can't remember
The last time I did.
***
Patience

You can take me away from my home
But you can't take my home from me
You can put me in a room all alone
But isolation has always surrounded me
You can't win, nothing you do will succeed.
You can't break me down.

I have willpower
I know everything will be right
I will always be on the attendance
All i've ever needed was patience.

You can take me away from love
But you can't take love away from me
You can push me, you can always shove
But the push has never affected me
You can't win, nothing will bring me down
You can't beat me down.

I have willpower
I know everything will be right
I will always be on the attendance
All i've ever needed was patience.
***
Insomniac

I got headphones on
And i'm gonna write a song
And it's 5:45 in the morning
And i'm not tired
I can't sleep anymore
I've never been an insomniac before
But now I am
And I don't care.
***
No One Else

You ask me how school was today
And I just shrug off your words and say:
"It could of been a whole lot better,"
Then you ask why it was such a bad day
And I look up at you with nothing to say
So I just walk away
And go to my room where I wish to stay forever
Then I put these words I thought of together.

I love myself
Because no one else would understand
I have to clean up after myself
Because no one else will lending a helping hand
Do you realize i'm not happy?
And that i'm so bitter?
Because school starts in September.

You asked me why I walked away from you
And you shrug your shoulders just like I do,
And ask "can you explain?"
Then I said something like it wasn't fair
And you wished you could of been there
Now, i'm not one to complain.
But you being there would of drove me insane.

I love myself
Because no one else would understand
I have to clean up after myself
Because no one else will lending a helping hand
Do you realize i'm not happy?
And that i'm so bitter?
Because school starts in September.

No one else knows everything i've seen
And no one thinks i'm sober and clean
No one knows and know one thinks
So i'll go where no one's gone before
And drink all the toxics I can drink

I love myself
Because no one else would understand
I have to clean up after myself
Because no one else will lending a helping hand
Do you realize i'm not happy?
And that i'm so bitter?
Because school starts in September.

WHOA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE I HATE FLOWERS AND NO ONE ELSE! GAHHH!!!
I LOVE THEM ALL!!

LOLOLOL, thanks. I actually wrote a guitar riff to I Hate Flowers. Its of course not played right but whatever. It sounds a bit like When I Come Around, lol.

lolol
that's awesome!!

lol, thanks.

I have writers block. I can't write songs/fan fics and I feel so lost lol.

awwww poor sarah!!

i hate writers block!

i think i'm catching it a little...

LOL. I haven't wrote anything in weeks. I usually write SOMETHING everyday but, nooooooooooo. My writing ability was just taken away! GAWD.

I'm just really bitter/hyper so don't mind me.

NOOOOO!!!!

Poor Sarah!



lol

More:

Leave Me Alone

Tears of joy stream down
as you look around
and your left all alone
There is no sound
disappearing is your frown
Because your all alone
And that's all you've ever wanted

Leave me alone
Leave me alone
Leave me alone, all of you
Just go away
Leave me alone
Leave me alone
Leave me alone, why don't you?
All of you, just leave me alone.

Fields of happiness
are leaving fast
when you feel eyes staring at you
They're coming back
Good things never last
And you don't know what to do
Because your not alone
And you've lost what you've always wanted


Leave me alone
Leave me alone
Leave me alone, all of you
Just go away
Leave me alone
Leave me alone
Leave me alone, why don't you?
All of you, just leave me alone

Go away
I don't want to play
A game you've made
I want to be alone


Leave me alone
Leave me alone
Leave me alone, all of you
Just go away
Leave me alone
Leave me alone
Leave me alone, why don't you?
All of you, just leave me alone
All of you, just leave me alone today
***
Awkwardness

You hate me
And I hate you
It would be nice to know what came between us two
I go with the flow
But how could I go
With a nothingness flow that will leave me low
It will lead me nowhere

It's a lowsy place
That i've been to before
And when I see your face
I don't want to go there anymore
Its not a dead end
It will keep on going
I lost a friend
And the awkwardness is growing

You hate me
And I hate you
It would be nice to know what came between us two
I go with the flow
But how could I go
With a nothingness flow that will leave me low
It will lead me nowhere

Its growing
Its showing
Its pushing and shoving
Its growing
Its showing
Its pushing and shoving
And nobody knows how much I want to shove it back.

You hate me
And I hate you
It would be nice to know what came between us two
I go with the flow
But how could I go
With a nothingness flow that will leave me low
It will lead me nowhere
***
Writers Block

Pick at my brain
Picking at my brain is all I ever do
Drive me insane
Driving myself insane is all I ever do

Nothings coming out
Nothings coming out at all
Except these fears
That I can't write anything at all
Writers block
Is all i've got
Its all i've got at all

Black and plain
I'm black and plain all over again
With blood and pain
Bloody and pained all over again

Nothings coming out
Nothings coming out at all
Except these fears
That I can't write anything at all
Writers block
Is all i've got
Its all i've got at all

Writers block is all i've got
Its all i've got going for me
Writers block is all i've got
Its all i've got going for me

Nothings coming out
Nothings coming out at all
Except these fears
That I can't write anything at all
Writers block
Is all i've got
Its all i've got at all
***
How The Hell Did I Get Here?

I guess it took your face smaking off the steering wheel to make you realize
Your fucked up your life and your plans are jepridized
Now your family and friends feel deceived
And they don't believe
That you will ever kick your bad habits aside

After all the pressure from your thoughtless peers
All you can think is 'how the hell did I get here?'

Well you got here
From long hard nights
Not playing it safe
Not playing it right
Your here now
And its going to take a long time to get back.

I guess it took your car getting totaled to wake you up
Your in physical therapy and you've been screaming for long enough
I'm feeling alone because your too weak to pick up the phone
But the agony's all your own

Well you got here
From long hard nights
Not playing it safe
Not playing it right
Your here now
And its going to take a long time to get back
***

LOVE THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-claps- GOOD JOB SARAH!

lmao, thankies

welcome!

Heres something I wrote today:

Hardcore

she's black and blue
and letting go of you
but you won't let her cause you want more
she can't get away from you
or stop what she knows your going to do
because you like it when its hardcore

tears of blood fall down her face
she wonders if this is her fate
to be violated in such a cold way
she can't grasp what she can touch
and she hates you so much
more than she did yesterday

she's black and blue
and letting go of you
but you won't let her cause you want more
she can't get away from you
or stop what she knows your going to do
because you like it when its hardcore

running mascara is wiped away
torn and teared are clothes today
and nothing even matters anymore
you try to scream but no one hears
your muffled voice amongst your tears
as the fire of fear cracks in your core

she's black and blue
and letting go of you
but you won't let her cause you want more
she can't get away from you
or stop what she knows your going to do
because you like it when its hardcore

hardcore
and covered in sores
its alright
because it destroying your core
hardcore
and craving more
but its okay
because all you've got is sores
Your nothing anymore

she's black and blue
and letting go of you
but you won't let her cause you want more
she can't get away from you
or stop what she knows your going to do
because you like it when its hardcore


hardcore
and covered in sores
its alright
because it destroying your core
You're nothing anymore

i LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!

......that is all.

lol

LOLOLOLOL
That sounded like Andy!
Whoa...
lol

Something I wrote in school today:

Right In Front Of My Eyes

I am powerless
To help you when you're emotionless
I am of no use to you
This is nonsense
To help you out when you make no sense
I am just a waste to you

Death is forever
So don't flirt with suicide
Do you remember?
The days I watched you cry
I watched you cry
Right in front of my eyes

I am emotionless
When I see you so powerless
Life is such a waste to you
I make no sense
Everything I mumble is nonsense
And now I mean nothing to you

Death is forever
So don't flirt with suicide
Do you remember?
The days I watched you cry
I watched you cry
Right in front of my eyes

I want to go by your bed
And walk inside your head
Ease your mind to tiredness
Take out your will to stay awake
And close your eyes and watch you sleep

Death is forever
So don't flirt with suicide
Do you remember?
The days I watched you cry
I watched you cry
Right in front of my eyes

LMAO


awwww, this is soooo good sarah! i lovvve it!

lol, thanx.

Today..in homeroom..this somehow came out:

Let You Go

Down below where demons nest
You ask for sleep, you ask for rest
You suggest a back door out of life
Anyway to commit suicide
We all will answer back
To the statement you call a fact
I won't let you die
Especially from a suicide
You argue with me
Say "this is how it has to be"
But I won't let you go
I won't let you go.

ooooooooooooooooooooooo love it!!!!!

lol, i didn't like it when i first wrote it but its okay now.
Thankies

welcomeies!!

lol

Suicide

Pain dwells on me like a fly that just won't leave
It lies on my angst that is covered by my sleeve
Crying and lying and slowly dieing
I'm not surviving

Right now in this time
Nothings good
Nothings right
Time passes by
And i'm left to die
In painful suicide

I couldn't be farther away from the thought of resurrection
And I moved far away from drinking meditation
Crying and lying and slowly dieing
I'm not surviving


Right now in this time
Nothings good
Nothings right
Time passes by
And i'm left to die
In painful suicide

I'm not okay
every passing day
my world melts away
i tried to tell you
but i wrote it all down instead
because i don't when i say words that come from my head


Right now in this time
Nothings good
Nothings right
Time passes by
And i'm left to die
In painful suicide
---

I swear, I can never write something happy.